So I haven’t been writing my post a week challenge because I feel like it should be something cool, or inspiring, or enlightening, or at least positive. But that’s not how things are going these days. So I can either abandon the challenge and wait until life gets better to post, or write fake surfacy posts that are not true reflections of myself, or just go with the flow and write the real deal. I’m not sure what will happen in the future, I may chose to be fake but today is the real deal….
So God and I are having a pow wow! Ok, so it’s more of a one-sided me cry, yell, and scream while He listens already knowing what I’m going to say. Today it’s about healing. Why God? Why have you not healed lil’ Sophie? Why does she have to struggle? She has done nothing to deserve this. Yet her 1st year of life has been nothing but a fight! You are the Almighty! You can do anything! Yet you do not heal her. Why?!?
I’m humbled as I recall Biblical accounts of Jesus healing people afflicted with ailments MUCH longer than a year! Many had disease and sickness most of their lives. (And in those days a person with S’s issues would have NEVER even made it close to a year). I’m also reminded of a conversation I had with a fellow from India who told me if S had been born today in India she wouldn’t have made it past 3 months.
And I’m upset that Lil’ Sophie has struggled for a whole year.
Healing. It’s a tricky subject.
I want to beg and plead with God….”please, heal her! Do whatever it takes to heal her!”
Really? Do I really mean that?
Or is my pleading for healing only a selfish plea?
Because the truth is that I want to add an addendum to my request which is “heal her while she is with me here on earth”.
I have absolutely no doubt that Lil’ Sophie will be healed.
The question is will it take place on earth or in heaven?
Therefore, I have to question my own plea….how badly do I want healing for my little girl?